The mystery from the past;

It is very hard getting answers to what exactly took place after I was shot in the head. I was in a coma. I know I was shot in the head and the cousin said, I shot myself in the head, which was a lie. He shot me in the head. He didn’t want to face any consequences for his actions. I don’t know why they didn’t do a gun residue test on his hands and that would have told them, that he was lying. Maybe for a small town, they didn’t have that kind of technology yet. Yet, it is messed up because he never did any time for what he did to me. He gave me an awful injury and he goes on with his life and I am still hurt and disabled. Yet, I am supposed to be happy that I didn’t die, but sometimes I think I would be better off, dying instead of living this life. I will not kill myself. Just life is tough, especially knowing I have not gotten justice for what happened to me. The cousin also hides from me because he knows I want money from him. So he is in hiding. Well, one day I will find him and get some money from him. He owes me because he took away the life I was going to lead. I was physically able before and now I am disabled. Life is not fair. Hopefully, no one here experiences what I go through on a daily basis. You will not be happy with your life then because my life is hard. Sometimes, it can be rough to get out of bed, but I do it. I only use one arm, not my dominant hand either and I walk with a gimp. So, life is a challenge and the cousin is physically able. So yes I am pissed. Hopefully, he gets what is coming to him one of these days.