Thinking of nostalgic times.

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I always wish for the past, especially when I was 13 years old, before the injury I sustained, being shot in the head. I miss using my left arm and walking physically abled. I wish I never went down to the river with the cousin. On January 1st New Years, it will be the anniversary of the injury because it happened on New Years of 1988, a long time ago. Yes, it happened 37 years ago and I still deal with the anger and the bitterness of the injury and the disability. My family just shoves it under the rug like it didn’t happen because they are in denial of the whole thing. As long as I’m breathing they are not going to make any effort to do what they should have done a long time ago, which was to hold the cousin accountable for what he did to me. It is too late for him to go to jail, because of the statute of limitations, but he can still pay me for my suffering. Yet, he is in hiding because he knows he has done wrong and doesn’t want to pay me a dime; even though I live with this injury. I walk with a gimp, my left arm doesn’t work. Everyone covers for him and they keep us apart, which I think is bologna. They should tell me where he is so I can confront him, but they don’t. They are afraid that I may go off on him. When all I want is compensation for an injury that is his fault. I did not shoot myself, like he told everyone when I was in a coma. That is bull shit. I am at a loss ,hopefully this year will be better than last year.

Hearing Led Zeppelin’s “When the levee Breaks, ” brings me back to a time when, I was in my old room playing drums to the song above. Just hearing the drummer, John Bonham play his drums, takes me back to the time I would listen to the songs inside my old room, when I was 12 or 13 years old. Music can be very nostalgic. Happy New Year to everyone and I hope you have a great year, thank you for reading.

Down that shadowy path is where I received the bullet in the head. This is Ariavipa Arizona.

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24 thoughts on “Thinking of nostalgic times.”

  1. I honestly don’t know what to write to you except that I’m sorry and if you could take all that pain and hatred on yourself, to set you free, you would do it. But only Jesus can do that, I can only pray for you.. So I want you to be happy, full of love, forgiveness.. Many greetings from me..Happy Now Year .. ๐Ÿฅณ ๐Ÿฅ๐Ÿ๐Ÿช‡

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  2. On here, we hear you. I can almost feel how you feel. I think it would really help you if you could get that one last confrontation it would give you that closure and would help you move on with your feelings with satisfaction.

    I hope one day you get to meet him and are able to express all your feelings towards him.

    And don’t worry it will definitely catch up to him, he will get what he deserves, it may not be in the form of prison but it could be in a form of misery or something that will make his life distressful.

    Lies always catch up in some way or the other.

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    1. Yes closure is what I need because nothing has been resolved all these years. He is a coward. He knows he did wrong. Hopefully something will get him sooner than later. Thank you for your comments. They hit the hammer to the nail. Awesome ๐Ÿ˜Ž.

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      1. Yep sometimes it just takes a bit of time. And thank you! Im glad to hear that! I think it’s because you write very raw and real, there’s no ambiguity in your words. What you say is simply as it is and that’s what makes it easy to understand. ๏ฝกโ โ—•โ โ€ฟโ โ—•โ ๏ฝก โœจ

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