The beginning and the end

First off, I would wake up when I wanted to wake up. I would brew some coffee and eat an apple and eat yogurt, maybe vanilla or blueberry. Then, I would take a nap because of the yogurt. Then, I would get up and have a salad, consisting of romaine, tomatoes, broccoli, cauliflower, purple cabbage, kale, carrots, spinach, and some cucumber. Then, I would practice my drums or shaker, while singing my songs. Then, I would read the internet and drink coffee, plus eat a pear. Then, I would shower, brush my teeth, get dressed, and head over to Sky Bar. I would mingle with my friends and perform and afterwards, eat pizza from Brooklyn pizza. Plus, if time allows, I would drink a beer. After a while, I would head home in the moonlight. As soon as I got through the door, I would eat a banana and eat nuts. Stay up, a little while reading a book or reading the internet. Then, I would brush my teeth, put on my pajamas and go to bed, the end. Thank you for reading.

Driving in the moonlight can be very nice.

Getting things in order-

Well with the passage of time, there was a period of time where I was not disabled. I was happier when I was not disabled. I miss using my left arm, but at least I have my right arm to use. Using one arm for everything is challenging, but it can be done. Hey, I could be a quad so I am trying to look at the positive side of life and trying to be grateful for what I have. With this injury, I could have died.

So, preparing myself for what comes next in life is hard. My real father died of diabetes, so that is why I eat a lot of salads and drinks coffee and water because I don’t want diabetes on top of this injury. If, I continue on the path I am on right now. I can live long enough to see justice happen to the cousin that shot me in the head. He does meth or at least he used to, so hopefully he will pay for what he did to me because like I said in many posts. I got no justice. I am depressed because of this and I don’t really talk to my mom because she didn’t press any charges and when I was younger, she always left me with other people, so I have abandonment issues.

Well, the perspective of life that is my happy point is playing music, singing, drumming, and playing shakers. That is all I have to offer this world because this is my passion. I may be older, but I still have more music to come out of me. Thank you for reading.

Put off and put off, laziness!

I tend to put off things because I need money to survive. So, I work Doordash instead of doing things that are fun, such as performing.Ā  Two weeks ago, was the first time IĀ  had performed in four years, which i think it went pretty well. I am planning to go again in the near future because it is crowded, so I don’t know if I can perform this week. It would be cool if I could, but only time will tell.

In conclusion, I put off performing to work for Doordash because I need money, but maybe i can do both. I get on late at night anyways, so we will see.

This song is Chihuahua. This song is about my friends dog. She passed away a few years back. I miss her. Thank you for reading.

Favorite thing to cook!

These days, I don’t have a lot of time to cook, but when I do. See I am Italian so I love cooking spaghetti šŸ with veggies (broccoli and cauliflower with garlic)and red sauce and when I have more time. I like to cook lasagna, but I have not cooked lasagna in a long time. I used to cook a big pot of spaghetti and eat the spaghetti for a few nights. Sometimes, it tastes better when I warm it up. Spaghetti is the staple of most Italians. Pasta in general is all good, in spirts, of course or else I would be a lot bigger. Thank you for reading.

Computer was a long dread

My first computer was not that powerful. It was an e machine which I bought at circuit City, when it was around here.

I bought the e machine in 1998, when I was going to Pima Community College. I used the computer to type up all my papers that I did for Pima Community College. I attended a writing class there and every week they had a writing assignment, which I excelled in.

I also used to play Doom on the computer. It was a shareware copy, which meant it was on a floppy šŸ’¾ disc and I had a shotgun and had to kill monsters in the game. I had to kill them before they would kill me, which most of the time they would kill me, but it was great fun killing monsters with a pistol or a shotgun.

Back then, we had Aol dial up which was internet but a lot slower. It used to have to connect to the telephone and dial the number and connect. It would say a wacky line”You got mail.” My step father used to come into my room to surf the internet, when I was asleep (late at night) and that wacky one liner”You got mail,” with the whole start up of Aol used to keep me up, which I had to get up early for college. Thank God, I moved out, but now I am a night owl. I guess things change. Thank you for reading.

Putting off performing

Last week, I finally got a chance to perform, which is something that is fun that I do. I went to Sky bar open mic on Wednesday. There was a new dj named Dj Chuck who was very nice. I did not drink so I could perform adequately. I will go again some time.

Here is a video of me performing “Her life,” because it is a woman’s life. They shouldn’t let people take there life away. They shouldn’t have to have a child if they don’t want one, but if they do then have one.

This is “her life”

Shot in the head

I complain the most about being shot in the head.Ā  I am disabled because of being shot in the head. My left arm is paralyzed and I walk with a limp. This is a big part of my complaining. Also, that I did not get any justice from the cousin that shot me in the head. He has not paid me a cent for my suffering. He didn’t go to jail for what he did to me. Now, if he shot me in the head. He would go to jail, but back then, no such luck. It happened a long time ago, but the effects are still with me. So I complain a lot about the Statute of Limitations, which basically states, that I can’t sue him after a certain amount of time passes. This law is bologna. I should be able to sue him if he took away my dominant left arm. This law needs to be changed because there is no justice no peace with it.

Don’t get me wrong I complain about other things, such as inflation, high rents, traffic, signs in the road. The cold and when it rains really hard. So I do a bit of complaining, but I am grateful that I have a roof over my head and food in my belly and for the most part, can pay my bills. Thank you for reading.

Somewhere under the moon, there is justice for me.

Lottery win baby!

The lottery is very hard and very challenging to win. It takes a lot of luck to win and a lot of trial and error to win. If I was fortunate to win. I would first not tell a soul I won, for a couple months and tuck the winning ticket away safely. Then, I would retrieve the winning ticket after a couple months passed by and cash it in, but remain anonymous. I would go for the lump sum because I could die the next day. So the annuity doesn’t make sense.

Once, I had the money I would pay off my debt. Then, I would buy my sister a home and a car, plus give her money. I would also give some money to my aunt Gracie and Uncle Frankie. Then, I would put some money into my music and hope it would go somewhere. I would give some money to the charities. Then, I would just be able to live stress free, knowing I have the funds to have some fun now. I would probably plan trips to New York or Los Angeles, sit-in on open mics there. Thank you for reading.

Books I would like to read, are a lot, if I was a faster reader. Due to the injury (shot in the head), I don’t read fast because my left eye doesn’t go across words as fast, but with practice, it is getting better.

First off, I would like to finish “Around the next corner,”Ā  by Elizabeth Wrenn,before not too long. With work, I don’t get a lot of time to read, but a few pages here and there. I should be done with this book by summer. It is about a woman, Deena who is a stay at home mom, whose husband works at a clinic and their two kids go to school. I think high school. Well, Deena has a cat she has roaming around the house. One day she gets a fantastic idea to get a dog. Now this dog is not your normal dog. She gets the dog from some sort of special club. The man who gave her the dog, needs the dog back in a year because it is going to be a blind seeing dog, so she has to train the dog from a puppy to listen to commands and be proper as a blind seeing dog. I am in the middle of the book, so we will see where it goes.

After I am finished with that book, I would like to read “Point Omega,” by Don Delillo. I read a few pages and I guess it is about this guy who wants to make a movie out of another man’s life. It seems interesting. I will let you know about it. Thank you for reading.