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Saver but sort of a tosser:

My table is not clean. It is full of different projects and things to read and things I need to look into, such as getting a credit card. I have to be careful when getting a credit card. I have to pay it off in full every month, or else the interest will creep up and I will be paying more than I would like to pay. I need to build credit so that is why I am looking into getting a credit card. So, I save a lot of mail I get offering me a credit card. Then, I ask Gemini if it is a good credit card. It always suggests I go with chime or discover. Maybe I will look into that and quit hoarding all this mail from other credit cards. Also, my lyrics. I save a lot of them. I get a good coffee high and write. It is a lot of fun to see what I come up with.

I do toss out quite a bit. Especially, if it doesn’t have any significance. Then, I will throw it out. Such as, daycare pamphlets to enroll my nonexistent children in. This is seeing the trash quickly. I would make a terrible father because I would forget them at school or some school function. Being one arm doesn’t necessarily make a good father. So, I stay child free, which is good. I throw out more stuff, such as receipts from stores and old coupons. I just throw out things I will never use. If I haven’t looked at something for six weeks. I will get rid of it. Thank you for reading. Have a nice night.

It depends if someone else is  buying the shopping spree!

Then, if someone else is buying the shopping spree. I might go to best buy because I need a laptop. Plus, they have the coolest gadgets at best buy, from speakers, to stereos, to televisions. It would have to be best buy if someone else was funding the shopping spree. 

Well, if i was funding it. It would be Walmart because they have good quality stuff at a reasonable price. I would go to Walmart and get my veggies, fruits, and maybe some pants and of course underwear. Never can go wrong with their big package of tighty whities 😆. Then, I would walk out of there like I accomplished something. The underwear are a must. Thank you for reading. Have a great night.

This is how I would feel walking out of Walmart yes!

Salad over and over

I never knew how good I would feel eating a salad every day and sometimes two salads a day. They make me feel more alive and with an apple and a cup of coffee. I feel great. I never knew I could feel like this because of the health factor. Before, I would eat processed meats and a lot of Mexican food like chimichangas, tamales, and enchiladas. Yes, very good food, but they were heavy food for my digestion. Now, I eat salads and more salads and feel awesome. Thank you for reading. Have a great night.

I believe in the salad

This salad is what I believe in. It is good, healthy,  and gives me plenty of energy. Fate is up in the air. I don’t think life is written in stone. You have to roll with the punches and be flexible for whatever life throws at you. One day, you can be in love, next day you can have a fit and need chocolate to fix the fit. So, life is not perfect. There are ups and downs, but for one thing you gotta be ready for anything. Thank you for reading. Have a great night.

Burgers and phase in life that’s no more

These burgers from Smash burger were very delicious, along with tomatoes, cucumbers, lettuce, bell peppers and spinach, with a whole lot of seasonings. They were great.

Well, when i was a child, up until 13 years of age. I was physically able. Life was a lot better when I was physically able. I could drum with both hands. Eat with my left hand. I was originally left-handed, but since I got shot in the head. I had to start using my right hand for everything. Without my right hand. I would be really messed up. They say everything happens for a reason. I am still trying to figure out why this happened to me. I had my whole world turned upside down, being shot in the head. To make things worse. When, I was 13 years old, they put me on tegretol for seizures, until I was 26. It would mess me up. The first pill would put me back in bed, for an hour or so. I took the next one at lunch time. All I wanted to do was go to sleep. It wasn’t a life. I had to drink coffee when I was a teenager, because the pill would knock me out. I could barely talk on the pill. I was soo tired all the time. I lost dates and a lot of friends because I could not talk to them. Also, I walk with a limp so I could not keep up with them either. When I was 26, they put me on Depakote which was better, but still knocked me out. Then, I went on Gabapentine , when I was 30 and soon after that, no more pills. I joined the gym so that was how I got off the pills. I haven’t been back to the gym in a long time, but one of these days I will return.

In conclusion, I lived two lives, one was my physically able self, up until 13 years old. After that, my disabled self, being shot in the head and that is how I remain today. Thank goodness I am not on pills for seizures anymore. Thank you for reading. Have a great night.

Pantera – This Love (Official Music Video) [4K]

Gotta be Phillip Asemblo the lead singer of Pantera because it would be interesting to see what being a frontman of a professional band like Pantera would be like. To sing like him for a day would be awesome. He is one of a kind. Maybe his music is not for everyone, but it has gotten me through some rough patches of life. The music is a little edgy, but it is good. Thank you for reading. Have a great night.

Word I would ban

The word I would ban from the English language would be retardant. It is the worst word because it isn’t right. The right word these days is developmentally delayed. This is the proper way to address a person that has a low IQ. My friends all the time used to say that this guy is a retard. It is so wrong. They need to get to know someone before they label someone that because it is an awful word to describe someone. Developmentally delayed is correct today.

Many people who look at me and may call me a retard because of the way I walk and my left arm is on my stomach. Until, they get to know me and then they see I am not retardant or more correctly, developmentally delayed. So this is the word I would get rid of.

Just for other news, Robert Carradene the actor who starred in Revenge of the nerds and Lizzy McGuire committed suicide at 71. He had bipolar. He was probably in a bout of depression and killed himself. How awful 😞.

Then Martin Short’s daughter killed herself also at 42 years old. I wonder if they would have gone outside for a while or just eaten some fruits or even a salad if they would have still been with us because depression is awful, or go to the gym. They just had to get through the night. Even, eating dark chocolate or eating cinnamon can help with depression. I just wonder if there was a way to save their lives. Or, maybe the depression was so bad that they killed themselves because of the demons in their heads. How awful. Thank you for reading. Have a good night.

Living in my head

It is a scary place to be. I can’t tell you what I will be doing six months from now. I live day to day and don’t look further into the future. I live in the present, rather than the past or the future. I sometimes ponder about the past and wonder what I would be doing if I had not gotten shot in the head, but this is not realistic. The fact that I did get shot in the head and this is my reality. Yet, it sucks for me, living with a disability (walk with a gimp, my left arm is paralyzed). So, this brings me right back to living in the present time. They say if you live in the past, you are depressed and if you live in the future, you are anxious. I am depressed so I drink coffee and eat apples so I can get myself out of that funk. Plus, I take walks to get some vitamin d from the sun. It works for the most part. Also, I eat dark chocolate, which also helps depression. So, even though I feel sad. I do have ways to deal with my depression that will make me feel better. So in hindsight, I live in the present.

The moon is pretty. Thank you for reading. Have a great night.

I will say it again:

The advice I would give to my teenage self would be don’t go down to the river with your cousin Manny. He will shoot you in the head and ruin your life. No one will ever look at you the same. When he poses the question, just run anywhere you can, but don’t go down to the river with him. He is evil and he doesn’t care about you because it shows in how he has treated me over the years.

I know, you guys are close, but once he shoots you in the head. He leaves you behind and you get no justice because your mom doesn’t press any charges because it is her sister’s son. So, I would emphasize not going down to the river with him. He is an animal who doesn’t care what happens to you. He only cares about himself. I know if you would have shot him in the head you would have been there for him, but since he shoots you in the head. He vanishes from your life all together. So, for crying out loud, don’t go down to the river with him. Thank you for reading.

Look at the pretty moon picture. This is what I would emphasize to my teenage self because the moon is pretty, not my cousin Manny. Have a great night.