Living in my head

It is a scary place to be. I can’t tell you what I will be doing six months from now. I live day to day and don’t look further into the future. I live in the present, rather than the past or the future. I sometimes ponder about the past and wonder what I would be doing if I had not gotten shot in the head, but this is not realistic. The fact that I did get shot in the head and this is my reality. Yet, it sucks for me, living with a disability (walk with a gimp, my left arm is paralyzed). So, this brings me right back to living in the present time. They say if you live in the past, you are depressed and if you live in the future, you are anxious. I am depressed so I drink coffee and eat apples so I can get myself out of that funk. Plus, I take walks to get some vitamin d from the sun. It works for the most part. Also, I eat dark chocolate, which also helps depression. So, even though I feel sad. I do have ways to deal with my depression that will make me feel better. So in hindsight, I live in the present.

The moon is pretty. Thank you for reading. Have a great night.

Dream job and more-

Everyone has their ideal job. Some people are able to make it happen, others dwindle trying to make it happen. A long time ago, I was going to be a social worker. So, I set out and received my bachelor’s degree in social work. I thought this was my ideal job. Until, I could not get hired in any of the jobs in my field, so I became a teacher’s aide instead. It was cool while it lasted. Some other teachers aides would get angry at me. So I quit that job because of a teacher’s aides wrath at me. So, I dwindled a little more. I do doordash a little, but I still don’t know what I want from this life. I am old, but my dream job would be making music. I like playing the drums and writing and also singing. It is fun to do all of it. I practice daily on the craft; even though I am old. I do it more for my mental health and it helps me relax. Maybe one of these days, I can get a gig or go to an open mic. Well that’s my dream job, playing music. It would be awesome. Thank you for reading. Have a good night.

Maybe if I pray to the moon God. It can happen for me, or maybe I am too old. Well, one can dream.

Going out of the realm

Well, everyone has an ideal job. The job that makes money and keeps it going throughout time. People like all sorts of jobs, such as working with computers, to working with people, working in tech all sorts of jobs.

I found a niche job that I would like to do if I could. Maybe not get paid for it, so I would still have to do Doordash. I would do this job longer than one day, if I could. Or maybe one day is good enough. Maybe it would be boring, but I would cherish this job. If, I could just stare at the moon through a microscope. That would be fascinating. Maybe just one day would be good enough, but that job would suit me. Thank you for reading.

Cluttered up

Everything is cluttered up gotta figure out a way to turn off my brain from making me go crazy. My brain worries a lot instead of just going with the flow of things. I find myself sleeping a lot because the clutter of worrying is too much for me. The clutter in my brain is there because I think I drink too much coffee and it makes me paranoid, but I need the coffee to stay alert. So it is a double edge sword. Plus, I have too many bills, so there is some of the cause of the worrying. I just need to practice deep breathing exercises. They seem to help. I’m disabled so it is kind of hard to do yoga, but I bet that would help too. Sleep 😴 always makes the worry go away. Thank you for reading.

Staring up at the moon makes the worry go away too because there is something refreshing about looking up at the moon.

Hard work Yada Yada

Hard work is most fulfilling when I can listen to my music and drink coffee or water and just focus on my work. Without any distractions from the outer area.

Such as doing Doordash, where I focus on delivering food to people and making sure it is the right house of the customer. So then I can rest easy and watch the moon. Thank you for reading.

A crusade

How much would you pay to go to the moon?

Introduction- a lot of people want to go to the moon, so it can be pretty pricey. In this blog, I will discuss how much I would pay to go to the moon.

I would probably wait to go to the moon because any figure I would throw out would be way below what is expected. I am the type of person who waits until a lot of people have experienced the attraction, like the moon. Then maybe I would get a good deal to go to the moon. I would say maybe $1000 to go to the moon. I would have to save up to go,

I know Jeff Bezos was offering to go to the moon and it would cost 22 million dollars. I don’t have that much money so I would have to wait a long time before I received my chance to go to the moon. I am fine being here on earth so I am not in a hurry to go to the moon because of the cost.

In conclusion- lots of people want to go to the moon. I would wait until all those people received their chance to go to the moon. Then I would go and maybe get to go on a discount or cheaper than most. I would probably spend a thousand dollars to go, but I would have to save up to go. Also Jeff Bezos was offering to go to the moon for 22 million and that is too much so I would wait until prices go down. Thank you for reading.