Gift of wanting

Love is the greatest gift someone can give ❤️ me. I have been wanting love for a long time. Not sure i can get it this late in life, but they say miracles happen everyday. So maybe I am not too old. Some love with compassion and reassurance that she will love me through thick or thin. I am not looking for marriage. That would be a little extreme for me because I would be heading for a divorce. I can see it. I don’t do something right or I forget something like Valentines day or an anniversary. She would divorce me. So, no marriage, unless she gets my brain injury. Plus, I come from a divorced family, so it is in me. So, it would be very hard not to follow suit.

Love from the divine master God will work too. His love shines down on all of us everyday. We just don’t know it, or we feel it. It is that warm feeling you get in your heart when everything is falling into place and your happy with your life and you feel fulfilled with where your life is heading. I haven’t felt that for a long time, but sometimes when I least expect it. He shines his goodness in my life. I love God and try to pray a rosary each day, so I get his blessings. His love is worth its weight in gold. As long as you have his love. You have the most important love out there. Thank you for reading. Have a great night.

Playing music and eating delicious salads and God

This chicken and tomato, romaine, spinach, pickles, peppers,purple cabbage, and carrots was a sure delight to eat. It was definitely delicious and it is very good for me. Diabetes runs in my family, so I need to eat more salads. Also, playing music is very fun. Playing drums or shakers it is all fun. I play drums and sing my lyrics everyday. I am very angry because I walk with a limp, and my left arm does’t function correctly. So, I use music to ground myself and soothe the angry child within. It works, along with praying to God . I would go mad if God was not in my daily routine because my anger takes over. I pray so I am more at peace. Thank you for reading.

My heart is broken,

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We have lost some really good actors and musicians this week. It has tugged on my heart. I can’t believe who we have lost just this week. Ozzy Osbourne, Hulk Hogan, Malcolm Jamel Warner, plus Chuck Mangione. They were all great at what they did. It is just all of a sudden and this happened. Death follows people. You never know when it could be your last day on earth.

I mean Ozzy Osbourne played his last concert before he retired and all of a sudden he died. Parkinson took his life. He was 76.

Hulk Hogan was only 71 and he had cardiac arrest, that really does make me feel bad because he could have lived a little longer. If the doctors monitored what he was doing, but on the other hand. When it was his time to die. Death came for him.

Malcolm Jamel Warner’s death was an accident. He wasn’t supposed to die, but he got sucked into a wave and died tragically. He was 54.

Chuck Mangione died of natural causes at 84 in his sleep, but too much death in such a short time is hard to handle, especially for their families and friends. My heart goes out to them. I am in shock right now, but life goes on. It is overwhelming, but hopefully they can find peace in knowing their loved ones are with God now and Jesus Christ. Take care of yourself my friends and good night and thank you for reading.

Proudest moment

There are so many holidays

Many holidays are my favorite holidays. I like a lot of holidays. Such as Christmas because it is Christ’s birthday. I love God and Jesus Christ. So that is my favorite holiday. I have to cherish that holiday because without Christ and God I would not be here. They didn’t have to bring me back from being shot in the head. They could’ve let me die. Since, they brought me back. I need to try harder to be just and love them even more.

Sometimes, life is hard, since I am disabled, but when I think of God and Jesus Christ and their love for me and for everyone. It gives me strength to carry on and do what I am supposed to do, which is to praise them more.

I don’t like to throw my beliefs on anyone. So you believe how you believe. I just think Jesus Christ and God are truly amazing and are love.

In conclusion-Christmas is my favorite holiday because it is Jesus Christ’s birthday. I love him and God truly.

Long life is not what I had in mind.

Since I am disabled and shot in the head and have one functioning arm and walk with a gimp, my chances of living a long life, do not look possible. Unless they find a cure for paralysis, I don’t see myself living a long life. I eat healthy, salads and fruit and also yogurt, but that can only go so far. I am already pretty old, if I live very much longer. I will be a pathetic old man for real. So I am not counting on living a long life.

So, my idea is to leave my sister some money when I am gone. So she can be self-reliant on herself because I don’t think they are going to cure paralysis anytime soon. So for now, I walk in the light of God and when he is ready I will go back home to him. Thank you for reading.

Biggest influencer in my life!

The biggest influencer in my life is God. We cannot see him, but we can sure feel his presence. He talks through our hearts and has provided a path of loveliness. If we follow his words we can achieve great things. All you have to do is talk with him and he guides you and me to be the best we can be.

God is somewhere out there. Thank you for reading.

Direction in life

What gives you direction in life?

In this blog, I will name the one absolute certain entity that gives me direction in life. One entity is God! He is the absolute perfect entity. Without him, I would have not survived being shot in the head. He saved my life so I have gratitude for that. He provides me with direction and everything happens when it is supposed to. All I have to do is be patient and he does the rest.

So in conclusion- God gives me direction in my life. Thank you for reading l.

A long time ago

Can you share a positive example of where you’ve felt loved?

In this blog, I am going to share a positive example of where I have felt loved.

A shining example of love is when I kneel down in front of God and pray the rosary in front of him. I have not gone to church in a while but when I did. I prayed a rosary and I felt at peace with life. As such, all my problems have disappeared. It was an amazing experience. I felt God’s love for me at that moment more than ever. It was a peaceful feeling.

I have not been back since that day. The city turned that church into an apartment complex so it is difficult for me to adjust to another church.

A while back, I tried to go to another church, but it wasn’t the same. The church seemed bland without all the nuns singing in the choir, like it is in the church that was converted into an apartment complex.

Well God’s love is divine and there is nothing greater than his love. Thank you for reading.

The trait I value

What’s the trait you value most about yourself?

The trait I value the most about myself is the ability to bounce back from tough situations, which is called resilience. I was shot in the head by my cousin, lost my left arm, and walk with a limp, have a brain injury but yet I am still here because of God and my resilience.

A lot of people would have committed suicide if they were me, but not me sure there are times when I get depressed but I never go through with suicide because there has to be somewhere a better life for me. Plus it is chicken crap to commit suicide.

My love of God and my resilience will not let me commit suicide even though I have been going through a lot of challenges. I won’t give up. I need to bounce back and make a tough life into a piece of cake and be a truly resilient, which I know I can.