When hard times approach, I always remind myself this is temporary. I won’t always have this problem, such as something going wrong with my apartment. Someone will come and fix it and the problem is gone. Such as, the time my cooler stopped working in the summer. They just brought another cooler for me to use, the same day it went out. The apartment I have really tries not to make me suffer too much. So, what I do is drink coffee and drum and also sing a little and that makes me feel better. So, in turn it is therapeutic for me to do the activities I listed above.
So, when I feel down about the injury and feel hopeless that nothing will ever change. I get out of bed and get some sunlight and drum. This also helps with my depression because sunlight has vitamin d which is good to restart the brain and make me feel a little better. Drumming helps by providing movement and exercise for my body.
Just drinking coffee makes me feel better when I am going through hard times because for some reason. I am happier with coffee. I guess dopamine is an old trusted friend of mine that I have to have in my life and brain. It has never failed me so far because living with a disability is not easy. I need vices such as coffee, eating salads , drumming, and singing. These activities give me hope that things can get better. If I really want them to get better. There will be brighter days ahead. Hopefully, all ends well. Thank you for reading. Have a good night.
What’s a time you ignored your gut — and paid for it?
Before I was shot in the head, back in 1988. I had premonitions that I was going to be shot in the head, or at least be shot. Yet, it was always a woman. I had dreams of some random woman shooting me in the head or somewhere. I even told my stepdad that I had a dream that another woman shot me in the head or somewhere. I had these reoccurring dreams. I wish I would have listened to them.
I would have never thought that the cousin, who was like a brother to me, would shoot me in the head. I actually told the cousin, I didn’t want to go down to the river with him, but he kept bugging me. So I went down to the river with him.
So I pay everyday for that decision I made.By being disabled, I walk with a gimp and I cannot use my left arm. This is a horrible injury. I just hope that no one on here has to live with the pain of being shot in the head with a gun. It is not fun. Thank you for reading. Have a good night.
What’s something you’ve forgiven but haven’t forgotten?
He didn’t go to prison or pay me any money for being shot in the head. Plus, he ruined my life. That’s why it is so hard to forgive him and forget it. Plus, he is in hiding. I asked my older sister to take me over to his house. Yet, she won’t do that simple task. She says she doesn’t know where he lives, but she has his phone number in her phone. She is lying. He is a coward to man up to what he did to me. He just wishes I would go away, but I am not because what he did to me was wrong. Anyone would have a hard time living this life. My dominant left arm is paralyzed and I walk with a gimp. Plus, the bullet is still embedded in my brain. People look at me weird when I shop at Walmart. I wish I could make a shirt that says I was shot in the head, so people knew what happened to me. It is embarrassing going in public with a gimp. Then, when people stare at me. It is twice as embarrassing. I just want people to know what happened to me so they could say, he was shot in the head. Instead, of guessing, I have cerebral palsy or a stroke. Forgiving him is hard because all I think about is how life would have been different if he did not shoot me in the head. Or, I never met him before. Thank you for reading. Have a good night.
If you got to live inside a video game world, which one would you choose?
Not from the game, but I thought it captured the love for the goose. As far as video games, I would be part of an untitled goose game because the goose cannot die. The goose can only get shooed away. He is a mischievous goose, but yet he still can’t die. That would be fun. I can dig this video game world. I can be horrible and not die. What a concept, it would be very nice. Thank you for reading. Have a good night.
I should have said, bye bye to the cousin as soon as he was getting me in trouble. The first time he started a fire and lit a tree on fire. It should have been a sign to leave. For some reason, I thought I was stuck being his friend because my mom just left me in Ariavipa with him and his family. While, she went to Tucson to try and get something going as far as work goes. Even though, each time he got me in trouble. I would get hit, either by my grandpa, or my step dad, for stealing mail, or starting fires. If, I had the will power to get rid of him. I would not have gotten shot in the head with a gun. So, I learned the lesson too late to not hang out with the cousin. After, he shot me in the head. I never saw him again, only occasionally. Yet, now I never see him, which I guess is good. He used to lead me around like a dog, doing things I didn’t want to do. So, good riddance to the cousin. He wasn’t good for me at all. Thank you for reading. Have a good night.
Has your idea of what makes a good friend changed as you’ve gotten older?
Yes, it may have changed. Since, I lost my car I have not been able to see my friends at all. I talk to them sometimes on Facebook or Instagram. So, the real change happened because I lost my car. Gas was so expensive that I couldn’t afford a car anymore. Plus, with insurance. It got to be really expensive. Then, Doordash was not giving me enough runs to keep the car, but maybe one day I will get a car and see my friends again. I did see one friend who came around when I did not have a car. He was putting on an open mic and he invited my sister and I to the open mic, but he lost the open mice opportunity. So, I no longer see him anymore. He will call once in a while, to try to get me to do some work for him at the swap meet, but the schedule never matches. So, I never go. The swap meet is where people sell things and loads of people go there to buy things. It is like an outside flea market. Besides that, my friends don’t ever come around because they are too far, or they gather at the sky bar, which is too far for me to go. Yet, one day I will make it down there to see them perform. Another thing, my friends have gigs and all want me to go and I am not in the mood to hear their type of music. It is Mexican music, which I have to be in the right mood to hear because most of my friends are musicians. Most live far from me, but once I get a car. I can go see some of them. Thank you for reading. Have a good night.
Air is one thing I cannot live without or to be more specific oxygen. My lungs absorb oxygen from the air to power up the cells in my body. Well, everyone needs air to live. It is vital. Thank you for reading. Have a nice night.
What’s a small moment from your past that you still think about years later?
A long time ago, I was sitting on the couch in my grandparents house. It was evening time and the sun was shining through the windows.
My grandmother was cooking eggs, beans, steak, and menudo. It was quite a feast for my grandpa, my older sister, and I. The wine was for my grandpa. We were all watching television. I think it was the news. I can’t really remember. Yet, I think of this small moment a lot. God rest my grandparents souls, on my mom’s side of the family, may they rest in peace. Thank you for reading. Have a nice night.
Success in life is defined by a bunch of factors. One of the most important things is that it is about who you know because knowing the right people. Can put you on the right track to being successful. The right people can land you a job where you are successful. Plus, making enough money to live comfortably. That’s what it’s about being comfortable and being successful in your community and the areas around you. Being successful doesn’t necessarily mean having a lot of money. It is more about having good people around you and people you can count on to do their part and that’s being successful in life. Having good friends and good laughs and also, having some wiggle room to do things you like. Thank you for reading. Have a good night.
What’s a completely useless fact you love sharing?
This useless fact I have shared before. They are flowers with the sky behind them. They are supposed to be torn, but this picture stood out to me more because of the blue sky behind the roses. It is quite a comforting picture if I must say. It doesn’t mean anything, but the blue sky means it must be a warm day, wherever it was taken. The fact is the day must be a beautiful day because of the blue sky and the roses add a nice touch to the sky. Thank you for reading. Have a nice night.
